New mantra

What's the worst that can happen?

Relationships are like dogs

According to my new roommate all relationships are like dogs. They come in all sizes and shapes but when you take everything away they are still dogs.

5 years

5 years ago today...

What does five years look like? A lot of change - stronger, weaker, happier, sadder, louder, quieter.   It has gone by so quick yet seemed so slow.  Raising a toast to every moment of the last five years.

What is my dream job?

In a job interview today I was asked if money and education were not a problem what would I want to do.  I have no idea. Maybe it's time I figure that out now that I'm an adult. On to the next chapter of Tonya.

Bella

The wind in my hair, the music breading steadily against my back, zipping along in the dark...I miss my car when I need to drive. Wings are not the same in a jeep. I finally saw Cheyenne, Wyoming tonight which calmed the itching for a bit.

Memorial day 1995

20 years ago I moved to Northern Virginia and memorial day saw us visiting Arlington national cemetery. It was our annual moment is silence to give thanks to those who died for me. 9 years ago this weekend we moved to Colorado.

Though life has taken a turn that I didn't expect I wouldn't change my path. I think those who died for me would have the same thought - they wouldn't change anything either. Thank you to the men and women who have died and who will die for my freedom. I am humbled in the face of your sacrifice.

Lesson learned

I went on a date last night and he surprised me with tickets to see Jessie J who is not my favorite artist but it was fun. She pulled a young girl on stage and said life is a collection of moments - good and bad - and we should embrace them. Here's to the moments.

Loss of words

One of two things happen in the face of adversity: you become stronger or you become weaker. You find out who cares about you and who doesn't. If you can't rely on the people who care about you then your stuck relying on yourself and it gets lonely on top of your pedestal.

What does happy look like...

Happy? What does happy look like four and a half years later? I'm not sure how it looks on the outside but it feels amazing. Is it perfect? No but all the decisions in my life right now are mine to control. I control my happy! Cheers to a wonderful year!

A thought in time

I had a thought today. What would Bri be like if I had died instead of Mike?  Way morbid I understand but still a thought. Would she still be an amazing young lady?  I look at her and see the best parts of Mike. She came down from college yesterday to surprise me but I wasn't home.

Would she be a better cook because Mike would watch cooking shows?  Would she be less OCD about some stuff or understand the need for more than one pair of shoes?  Just a thought as I contemplate life four years later.