God, heaven can wait on another angel. Please don't do this before Christmas.

What's that saying: you healed when the memories that used to make you sad can now be cherished and smiled over?

Magic

I read an entry in my journal from the 1 year anniversary. I quote, "I stare up at the stars and wonder what magical event is happening somewhere in the world while something else falls apart." I want to believe in the magical events.

Bri is in Chicago and I'm spending the evening alone at home. Progress!

I went back to Mariah. She asked why and I said the anxiety was back to where it was before.

A discussion tonight reminded me that I'm no closer to figuring out who I am than I was 2 years ago. I have no idea!?!?

Right this minute is when I miss mike the most. I was involved in a accident today and I don't want to be strong

Bri put mikes photos back up around the house. I hadn't realized how gut wrenching the pain is and how strong the loneliness has become. :(