Now I know why I keep watching the twilight movies - we all dream of finding love like Bella and Edward. We can dream.

Hopefully this weekend will be very cleansing for me. We shall see!

Every time I want to post on fb I will blog instead.

I don't wanna grow up. I wanna be a toys r us kid!

It hurts...why does it hurt so much?

The statement, "My heart hurts. I need a band-aid" is so awe inspiring and painful at the same time. I think my heart is healing.

It is another p.s I love you kind of night :-(.

Brick by brick they all stay here. Piece by piece no more fear!

Ever look around and wonder how this exact moment in time happened?

I haven't been posting but right now I want to scream and tear at my skin! When does it stop? When can I breathe in peace again?

Beginnings

So it's been awhile since I've blogged and a friend reminded me about it and said I should blog about 2012 - the year of ME! It has been a crazy 17 months. 2012 brings a mission trip to San Diego for me, a trip to the Kentucky Derby for the Holliday girls, a trip to the Dominican Republic for Bri, the Diva Dash run, a triathlon for me and New York City for Bri's 16th birthday.

I cannot believe Bri turns 16 this year. She will start driving next month and will be a junior in high school in August.

It's only January but 2012 feels like a good year. I'm dating a great guy named Rob. When I talked to my therapist about Rob she instructs me to stop building walls. Bri has a new boyfriend too. I like Paul - he races mountain boards and goes to a different school so it cuts down on the drama during school.

Rob is helping me train for the triathlon. I have Devon, one of my oldest friends and Vegas buddy, to thank for this. It is the Iron Girl triathlon in Lake Tahoe, CA in September. She caught me at a moment of weakness and convinced me to do this. This is a positive focus according to my therapist.

Stay tuned for the next installment of Adventures in Wonderland with the Holliday women!